We sometimes get these days and moments of self doubt and questions of self worth in our lives. And we are always constantly questioning about the career path we have tread. Am I gonna be a licensed architect? Can I actually become a licencsed architect? Do I have what it takes to make it? and will I be able to go out and do a damn good job at what I do? (And from my setbacks and hard experiences in University, I do get at myself with these questions - ALOT, and it's sometimes disheartening). And usually, I would usually beat myself up for it, but for somehow this time it is different, and I had a positive experience and possibly might be scratching the surface that I might want to explore.
I value the things I have gained in my architectural education - though daunting and stressful - it has made me become more of a hard-worker, a team-player, and is building a strong ethic in me, I guess now it is more of reflection if I wanna go far and aim high for an M.Arch or do I wanna go for an MBA or study Project Management or Planning or another design field after this like graphic design or something?
I guess, right now I'm just figuring out this along with the other things that might've hindered or struggled with over my degree and learning more about who I am more personally than ever. Can it be that now I am becoming a little more realistic...maybe at tad negative? - or possibly practical on what I know more about myself. I just hope that whatever will happen, I will be content. I'm just afraid to be disappointed in my 30s realizing that I wish I was that architect, or to be disappointed that I didn't attempt it or go all the way or likewise the disappointment or dislike of letting go of a career goal you had since you were in your sixth grade. But for now, this reconsideration is looking into who am I as a person, what are my strengths and weaknesses - and how I can make my career something I can be happy and content.
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